Last night was really bad. I couldn't settle down and it was starting to be daylight so I took my first 1/2 dose of valium just to stop moving around so much. (Usually I take it when I start to relax and the other half when I start to get sleepy. Weird but it works and the whole dose at once doesn't). So I went to sleep within the next 30 minutes or so and apparently took the sleepy dose then (which helps me stay asleep for a few hours on a good night). But I was wide awake again at 5 for almost an hour. I finally though "well, I didn't take the bedtime dose so I'll take that and maybe I'll get some sleep".

Unfortunately that was actually a 3rd dose. But the doses aren't that huge so they won't hurt me and once isn't a big deal. However the end result was the very sedated sleep that we've been trying to get for months. I woke up around 11 and couldn't even focus my eyes. So my accident turned into more sleep than I've had in 5 months. I am still groggy and weird feeling. And the mania was right there waiting for me once I'd been awake a while. But it feels so much more manageable today. I'm ever hungry, really, truly hungry and I haven't been that much for a long time either.

My next big step will be can I sleep at night after sleeping longer into the day. Hope so because some busy days start now. I have a haircut tomorrow morning (and that was a manic mistake; someone smokes in the salon in the mornings and with asthma it's kind of dangerous to go there before afternoon--but the person I want to cut my hair is only there in the morning so I'll just have to speak up if it is smoky. Or start using my inhaler.... Thursday I have therapy again. Friday right now I don't know of anything and Saturday I'm going to a wedding ceremony and then taking my nieces to my aunt's house to play so their parent's can go to the reception. I know that's not at all busy to those of you who work and have kids but for me staying at home during these bad times reduces my symptoms and so doing anything out of the house is a big deal.