Hey everyone! How are you all?

As usual I went on a little hiatus I went bananas punched/kicked walls and threw around any movable object in the house. I stopped the divalproex I think it caused some severe anger I actually almost beat up my boyfriend during the past couple weeks, we have both been pretty scared.

I told my therapist I was stopping the meds but I couldn't get in contact with my psych because she is in a hospital setting and I have to go through a bunch of transfers to get to her extension which I did try once and got sent to the wrong person after 10 minutes of just being passed around so during this period I have not had the patience or strength to explain to a number of people who I need to contact, like I told my therapist I can't even order a damn pizza let alone try to navigate the phone systems at this place!

I go see the psych on Friday so I'm not to thrilled if I'm going to reprimanded so I'm very anxious about this I feel like me saying I know the pills were the thing that was making me worse is not going to be taken seriously. I guess I'm just picturing her being like you don't get to decide that!!!!