i dont know why i fear telephone calls...
i've read of a thing called Telephobia, i think thats what it is...

i need help, i've started cutting again :'(

Telephone phobia - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
Telephone phobia (telephonophobia, telephobia, phone phobia) is reluctance or fear of making or taking phone calls, literally, "fear of telephone".[1] It is considered to be a type of social phobia or social anxiety.[1] It is often compared to glossophobia, in that both require engaging with an audience to a certain extent, followed by the fear of being criticized, judged or made a fool of.[2]
As is common with various fears and phobias, there is a wide spectrum of severity of the fear of phone conversations and the corresponding difficulties.[1] In 1993 it was reported that about 2.5 million people in Great Britain have telephone phobia.[3]
The term Telephone Apprehension refers to a lower degree of telephone phobia, where it is the anxiety derived from telephones, but less severe than that of an actual phobia.[4]
These people may have no problem communicating face to face, but have difficulty doing so over the telephone.