Angela:
I'm not sure if this is going to make sense, so please bear with me.

Sometimes it's just a way to remind myself that I am alive, especially when I'm numb or feel dead inside. When there's so much pain and other things going on in my head, it's a way to turn it into something real. Like the physical pain is real and it helps to ease the pain that's within me.

Not sure if that helps but the others had alot of great suggestions.

((Hugs))
Kimberly