I' be been struggling with this since I got stable in December. Not all the time but I would go through periods of just feeling cheated because I wasn't allowed to have the highs anymore, even though I was still experiencing lows. I'm with you, I was bored and I missed the euphoria and believing I had magical powers. But at the same time I don't miss the psychosis and the mixed states that inevitably come after mania. So I stay on my meds. I also stayed on them for my family. My unstable time was incredibly hard on them.

Of course I'm expecting now to be depressed for a long time. I don't know if I'll ever be happy again.