Well this month is a hard one for me. Dad's BD is the 6th, mine the 16th, then there's Father's Day. We always got together to celebrate our BD's together. Still having a hard time sleeping, seems like that is when the memories start to flood the head, with finding dad and other stuff. So sleeping is hard, once I do get to sleep it's like I have one eye open most of the night.
When I was at the doctors office the other day I kept feeling like someone was behind me and when I realized how many times I looked behind me and no one was there I felt very uncomfortable. Shouldn't surprise me though because I don't want to leave the house most of the time. My concerns is that I'm not getting better and in some areas worse, Some days I feel a little better in some areas and worse in other areas. Can't seem to get a balance.
I feel like I should see that counselor but I get physically sick thinking about doing that.
Just a lot going on.