Lol After the life I've lived...the opportunities I've missed...the money I've spent...the substances I've abused...the relationships I've destroyed and the gawd-awful decisions I've made, I'll take Stable & Bored any day of the week and twice on Sundays.

When I had a high mood, I wasn't paying attention to important things I should have been paying attention to. Oh, I thought I was brilliant and creative...but I was kidding myself in the worst way with that nonsense.

Ooo, look at me...I'm artsy fartsy...I'm making crystal sun catchers and scented oil candles (but I was blowing a chance to go into business with my Dad). Later I would spend $100's of thousands of dollars of my inheritance being oh so creative making knives (that I could only sell for $50).

Its just another slight of hand trick by bipolar. I will not be wooed by a high mood ever again. I've taken what I perceived as boredom, stamped a new label on it and now call it stability. I live for Groundhog Day as it presents no surprises.