So, I wanted to discuss something and it has to do with this thread. So, rather than retyping I'm just going to comment here.
I've suffered night terrors my entire life, graphic ones that make me dangerous to myself. Recently my doctor offered me a new pill that will suppress dreams. No more nightmares, that seems so impossible after spending 26 years of my life having nightmares 5 nights a week sometimes more.
The catch is, no good dreams either.
I can't decide what to do, I don't want nightmares but...the dreams of my dead friend, they're few and far between and I don't want to lose those.
My best friend offered to take them with me so I wouldn't be scared but I'm scared of losing certain dreams. I didn't tell her this but I can't let him go.
My dreams of my dead friend are all I have of him and I'm not prepared to lose those.
I don't know if I should let go and take the pills and lose what I have left of him and no longer have nightmares or if maybe...just maybe...the nightmares are worth it for those few nights I get to see his face.