Mellors,

I read your posts and I've thought of that situation - would i feel cheap? And I guess I can't answer that until it happens, but if we both know what it is I won't feel that I'm using the person just enjoying what comes natural.

I'm not saying I wouldn't like a relationship, but I just can't stop thinking about sex. It's hard (okay guys, no pun intended) to imagine that it could never happen. I mean I know you shouldn't project into the future, live for today, yaddy yadda. But it has been a long time.

I go to my AA meetings and get lots of hugs from both sexes, but that is only one piece of what I crave for. I'm sure part of it is loneliness but the other part is remember how good it feels to be with someone and how I want it.

Brother - I never would have thought that it would be hard to find someone to have sex with....LOL

Tranquility