things have just been hard for me again. for a while things were great/good/whatever.
today wearing some snazzy things i'd wear if my body wasn't..yeah...to school, and usually binding helps so much, but any way dysphoria is because of my hair (desperatly need a trim) and my big butt and hips, not to mention my very small frame.

i just wish i could be comfortable, i wish people saw me as how i feel rather than..ugh, my family's just been giving me a hard time, even my little brother. he's telling me "cross dressing" is weird and that i'm still a girl but HE DOESN'T GET THE WHOLE POINT IS I'M NOT? uugghh anyway. my parents almost made me out myself to my very homophobic/transphobic , highly religious grandmother. i had to say things that weren't true in front of her because she would never accept me. my parents KNOW WHY I "pUT MYSELF IN THE 'GAY COMMUNITY' " MY FACEBOOK NAME ISN'T SIMON BECAUSE I'M A REGULAR CISGENDER WOMAN MOTHER. So now my parents are completely cleared conscience i guess because they can pretend what i said was the truth and i'm ****ing fine but i just couldn't mention it to my grandmother i almost cried. she's told me before how she feels about "those people" this was mostly a rant i'm sorry life is just being stressful again, i might have to be a sophomore AGAIN EVERYTHING IS JUST so overwhelming....if i would've just been a regular kid, i would be a senior next yearbut i am having so much trouble with life. i know it's just going to get worse:/