in my opinion numb and on the border of or into depression is not stable. The doctors of course prefer that to the loony times but in that way we get cheated out of real life.
i dont know why but my meds are making me happy and is that rare? i dont know maybe the prozac added in is putting me on a bit of the other "happy side" i have floods of ideas and desires and wanting to change the world and i also got back into religion but i feel like this is the real me without depression darkening my days
i hope you feel better soon!