I will summarize from my livejournal posts (nolacontender if you want to see it there):

LOVE lamictal. On it for 2.5 months. LOVE IT. No sexual side effects, no uncontrolled hunger, did I say I LOVE IT?

Problem as of this Tuesday past: A Rash behind my ears, swollen hot numb ears, some facial puffiness - rash nowhere else, no anaphylatic symptoms. I go to the clinic and see the nurse. She calls doc, doc says STOP THE LAMICTAL!! I cry, and cry and cry. I go see the doc today for a scheduled appointment and here's how that goes:

So not only did he %#@&#! me off about taking me off the Lamictal which despite my protests I had anticipated. He said "Well you need to see a dermatologist"
Me: "If you find me one that will see me with no insurance and no income to pay them, I'll be happy to go see a dermatologist."
Doc: mumble mumble well, heh heh uh.. might be some cost involved.. mumble (no, "Yes, we'd be happy to assist you since it's our office who's insisting you go..)
Me:??? So um... (crying) what are you going to give me, medication wise now?
Doc: (and I quote, literally) "I'm not going to give you ANYTHING until you've seen a dermatologist. Period."
Me: "....??.... So... Let me get this straight... until *I* find a dermatologist that's willing to see me, you're not going to give me any medication at all??" (remember this for later in the rant)
Doc: "Yes"
Me: (Way uncharacteristic but hey) *gets up, kicks the front of his desk (oh so accidentally you know) lean over his desk and say venomously, "YOU KNOW WHAT? YOU SUCK, YOU JUST SUCK." - turn with a huff, slam his office door hopefully hard enough to disloge all pictures and his most undeserved name plate, walk down the hall, slam the waiting room door and leave the site.

<font color="red"> You tell ME - how a MEDICAL PROFESSIONAL, a PSYCHIATRIST who is LICENSED can tell a MENTAL HEALTH PATIENT with BIPOLAR DISORDER who isn't even STABLE on meds yet, who has a HISTORY of SUICIDE ATTEMPTS and SUICIDAL IDEATION prior to this miracle of LAMICTAL that he is TAKING AWAY -------- that he will not give her ANY medication, period. Then say, ta ta, have a nice day, good luck finding a specialist by the way, see ya when I see ya. </font>

I plan on speaking with the agency director. I've already vented heavily to his nurse, my case manager and the affiliated crisis center.

Oh, and FWIW, I even went to the ER tonight to see if THEY could do something for the damn rash since it will be gone by the time I see --- or IF I see a dermo. That was a joke. A shot in the butt and ta ta, see ya. Must be the day for impersonal, uncaring service. Full moon maybe, who knows.