Isn't it horrible that so much seems to hinge on losing weight? But the losing weight part never seems to magically happen??

Last year I bought some temporary professional looking clothes. I'd had an impromptu meeting for some freelance work and I had nothing to wear. I went out and spent $$$ on some professional looking outfits... which I've never worn. I don't think they would fit today. I also 'invested' in some make up and beauty type things, which will probably be outdated before I use them up. I think I've mentioned before that I have issues remembering to brush my hair - remembering to do lipstick and powder and all that is too much.

I find the prospect of buying new fat clothes to be VERY motivating in terms of losing weight or at least maintaining a steady state. I hope that works for you also - there's nothing more depressing than having to spend a bunch of money on stuff that you want to not fit ASAP!

I really wonder if the people who love their jobs just have great jobs or the right (?) attitude towards their jobs. And, yeah, money, autonomy, creativity all help a lot - but I know people who enjoy working, who don't want to retire, who have kind of mediocre jobs. I have a neighbor in her 70s who does food prep for a gas station - she doesn't need the money, but she keeps the job!

The situation you are in is incredibly demoralizing. I think it's really easy to forget what a normal level of suckiness is like. You are in a dysfunctional environment. I think if you could get to a place where you trusted that it was them, not you, it would be easier to figure out what you need to do next.

Every single day I go into this place, I find something new to be shocked by. Today I walked in to get reamed out by someone claiming there were no video ports on a laptop I'd given him. He was fairly apoplectic about this. I pointed out the two that were there. I just took it away.