Thank you. That put things in perspective in a good way. Therapy is going to be harder tomorrow just because we're going to be talking about suicide and that I realized no matter what I want I am stuck here because I have a niece who is now old enough to understand and who would be devastated by losing her aunt. Which hasn't been an easy idea to adjust to because it takes away my "out" if it gets too hard. But at least it can't land me in the hospital very easily.

The wedding should be fine. It's just a quick ceremony and the reception is 3 hours so I'll just be watching my nieces that long and I'm doing it at my aunt's and she's set up for kids that age so it should be fine. It sounds like my mom and aunt will be there for some of the time as well so I won't even have to be responsible the whole time and once my mom is there the little one will want her and not me. (She's funny. I'm great unless my mom is there in which case she'd prefer to just not have to put up with her aunt.)

The hair is ok. She did take about 2 inches off but that was probably needed; I put off getting it cut for a long time. It still can be braided for night and that's in some ways my biggest concern; I can make it behave as long as it's not way shorter than it is during the day but at night it needs to pull into a braid or it annoys me. So glad that is done.