I rode the med merry go round for a many years. What I found out was I cycled whether I was on meds or not, So why take something daily? yeah didn't make sense to me, I talked to my Pdoc and him and I decided to see how I would manage off meds. I never had trouble going cold turkey off any AP's .. I did go thru hell coming off Lithium( go figure)

Anyway I have been med free for over a year now. It's not all sunshine and roses, but I have lots of coping skills and I am also very self aware. If I really hit a wall and go Splat I would agree to a very short term us of an AP or AAP.

Sometimes I think our brains can be covered in such a toxic soup of chemicals that detoxing off meds and allowing your brain to regroup might just be the answer for some people.

I hope you find a solution and start feeling better soon, You have been in a hellish battle for much to long