When "off my meds" I was able to control how my brain felt most of the time. Via meditation and relaxation techniques.

The trouble I had most of all was the quickening effect in my body. My body would metabolize too fast and I would get scared as I would feel like I was freezing afterwards. I realize now that my thyroid was being brought into the equation to regulate my temp because my body was not doing it properly. It wasn't like my house was freezing it was relatively warm fall. But shivering and not being able to warm up several hours on a man over 210 lbs at 5'9 is not normal.

So I went back to taking meds off an on. Now I'm on the full time because I've given up. Mostly because my wife and her family seem to think its better to look sane then be healthy.

I don't mind being a little psycho here and there. Other people do and they are assholes for being that way not me.

So I'd rather wait a few years and see if I can draw disability and give up on the American dream.