hey. im 17 and in puberty and sometimes all i wanna be is "cool". i hate it.
before puberty i was very different. i just want to be authentic and have my own opinion. i just agree with everything so people won't be offended.

secondly im very emberassed when i misspell a word already, or people just dont understand what im saying and try to and it sounds very stupid. i sometimes remember stuff which are very emberassing and i hate myself because of it.

i dont have any friends anymore because i spent too much time on the internet for like a year and thought those were my friends. i've troubles understanding what real friendship is.

im really dissapointed in myself. when people get mad at me im so shocked that i can't even say anything. also when i imagine how bad people might think of others i think "maybe they would think the same about me". it's a bad thought but.

and i count too much on one person's opinion about me. i automatically think "what would he think about it", on the way like all the above.

is this something that will pass? is there anything positive about me too and how can i find it out?