It seems that I am always trying to get by in life, trying to get better, hoping for some positive changes that will make me feel better about myself and life in general. But sometimes I am not sure I want to make it at all. If this is my life...depression and anxiety...do I really want to continue. It seems like I am always grasping for happiness and never quite being able to get my hands on it. It seems like an ellusive dream never to come true. Then I think to myself do I really want life do I want to continue like I am now full of depression and anxiety all the time. Never any feelings of contentment always chasing after something or trying to get away from myself. I can hide from lots of things in life but I can get away from myself. I'm just not sure about life anymore. Do I want it or do I want it all to end. I want it all to end that's for sure but I can not do anything to myself to end it all because there are people that I love and I could never hurt them like that. So I feel stuck in a life I do not choose but can't get away from.