So lately I have been in a dark place. Anger had overcome me at times which in turn makes me act in ways that I should not be doing to my family. I don't know whats causing it either. Im extremely busy with work, it's my favorite time of year and yet I am having issues within myself. I have been drinking too much lately as well. My rage comes on at any time and is not caused only when drinking. I feel numb again when I see the ones close to me hurting. I have been better in the past, more able to recognize and feel. Now I feel nothing except emptiness and anger. I put shows on for work and then I am back to me at the end of the day. The real me is not a good thing for anyone. I even looked up therapists again today. Do I really want that though? It's so difficult to know I am not right and yet feel nothing. To know who I really am baffles my mind!!! This is my update for now.............