I hear ya DePressMe.......its soooo darn hard to accept illness. I think that all the time too.....why can't I just be normal? Why can't I just have a beer? Why do I have to do these darn injections every other day? Why am I now taking more medication for fatigue etc etc etc, why me why me why me.

The only thing I can do in these moments when I think my life is terrible, is make a gratitude list. If I dwell on nothing but the negative, it will lead me to drink an 18-pack or die.....I was in this spot about 6 months ago and it SUCKED. Luckily I didn't drink and obviously I'm still alive.

A friend of mine likes to say that a person constantly living in gratitude will have an easier time accepting the difficulties. I really find that to be true. Instead of focusing on what I don't have, ie physical or mental health, I try and focus on what I do have. I have my sobriety, my friends, a roof over my head, food to eat, family, PsychCentral, internet, a working computer, books, pictures, my cat, my bf and his cats, music.....the list can go on and on.

Its easier for me to stay happy and focused when I stay in the solution and stay in gratitude. Those moments of "why me" still slip in, and I still get resentful when I do an injection and it hurts, but I instantly say to myself, "it may hurt, but its keeping the MS in remission, so its worth it."

I think its all of us that are normal......and the "normal" ones are the weird ones!!!!! You know why? Because everyone here understands me......and I understand them......and the "normal" people make no sense to me.

Keep trudgin, and I hope you feel better soon.

Rayna