Don't be drawn in to the Vicodin scene. Opiates a very addictive and very dangerous. Before you know it you will need something stronger like Percocet or OxyContin and then you're in the clutches of addiction on top of your mental illness. And that **** will kill you. Killed my husband who had almost a year clean. He went to do his normal dose and it killed him. I am devastated now. You may not care if you're dead but I guarantee you have friends or family who will. So don't go with the opiates. Weed whatever.

Anyway I'd encourage you to hang in there. It takes years sometimes to find the right med combo but people have found it and ended up stable for awhile. I was stable until my husband's death. It is possible.