This may not relate but sparked a recent revelation in my life, you mentioned "someday you hope to soar". . . 2 years ago (how appropriate of a place) I was doing my internship at a The Raptor Trust in NJ, I went with the rehabbers/handlers to release 2 Red Tail Hawks that were rehabbed and ready to be set free, as I watched them soar, in my heart I felt the deepest of my depression was lifted up within the wings of freedom, I soared I have my days and still get meds. but the feeling of desperation to be held, comforted, understood, etc. slowly disappears with therapy and meds from a pdoc, and the wonderful support the people here have given me as I hope I can give to others. Don't forget, you too will rise up and soar, don't give up your day will come just do not set any heavy duty deadlines for it to happen, it will all come about just work with the professionals on it, if you do not like the ones you have, please find new ones. A life, a mind, a heart are terrible things to waste
Take care,
** hugs **
"darkeyes"

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SOLON