Hey, irritable4life. **If you believe you might commit suicide, call 911 immediately** Personally, I've spent days contemplating suicide, but I've known that I wouldn't actually go through with it at that time for various reasons. Only you can say, only you know your mind. But when you threaten to kill yourself in a public way, the responsible thing for others to do is take you at face value. Unfortunately, in an anonymous forum, there aren't many options for those reading your posts. But, please, If you believe you are going to kill yourself, call 911 immediately and get help.