i went to my case manager appointment today and explained everything im going through and she recommended i go IP again
i wasnt really expecting that, i was hoping for an emergency appointment with my pdoc but i guess he is just too busy to make time for an emergency apointment!

so it looks like i'll be going IP again, hopefully this time i can change these meds and come out on something better...

im super nervous and have only been hospitalized 1 time for mixed episode