I can relate to what you are asking here, Becoming.

I guess for me, personally, my part of caution comes down to the fact that I do experience episodes pretty frequently, for seemingly long durations at a time, which suck. So I'm constantly asking myself, "When is the next episode around the corner?"

Because when I do go through episodes they tend to be pretty severe and full on and can cause havoc in my personal life, including in relationships - and in your case, that would be romance.

Makes perfect sense to me what you are asking here.

"What if this" ..... "What if that" ...... you're spot on.