Thanks so much Hanna, my mind feels a lot clearer. He's been trying, but also failing, I separated him from his addiction, so I went back and forth, and back n forth... I know there's little hope to get him back.. I need to focus on my life finally so much to accomplish.. I can't wait! :-) I feel sad when he comes to me again begging for help I did all I could, but I lost my health, I couldn't take care of my newborn right, I've been so alone for too long