I also have lingering feelings from guys years ago. It's normal, for many of my relationships I've moved on though. It's hard for me to not be in a relationship, but my current has been stagnant for 2 years now. I'm experiencing the same thing- I might try to make friends with women or coworkers when I start working. I miss intimacy though, it's hard cause it's all or nothing with guys it's hard to control myself, maybe u want what u can't have?