i dont know what to do, i feel so alone, i want to tell someone how i feel but i dont know who. i feel that someone should know, but i dont know who to trust. i am scared, everytime i express how i truely feel, i hurt someone. i am so scared. i wish i could be free from all the crap dancing round my head. it doesnt feel like its my own tonight. i feel like i am watching my life playing out in front of me, taking a back seat to what is happening. and i dont like feeling out of control. i know i am rambling now and i am sorry. i am sorry for taking up your time and for not making any sense, i am sorry if i hurt you or upset you in any way. it is never my intention, i am just so scared. sorry.