The same thing happened to me on the nursing website where I've been a member since 2002. I lost my job as a moderator and almost got myself banned during a long, irritable mania back in 2011. Fortunately I was able to get my good name back and now I'm a site guide. Just don't beat yourself up like I did; you can't change the past, but move forward with confidence that people here understand. It's good to have you back!