everyone hates me and i want to die.
i appreciate help but i feel like a bother to everyone who tries to help me because it's impossible.
my parents and sis think i am an egoistical narcisstic douchebag and i agree with them. im so afraid.

sometimes i wish to do something against my narcism and actually be nice to people but i just regret living my life like this.
i am so emberassed about alot of things.
i can't get them out of my head, and when i accept they are happend, and i can do better next time, there's a crapload of more i need to accept.