Ok, so my mum was checking out the burn on my arm which was fine then she started asking about some scars on my arm that have been there years and i was like eh eh eh - they've been there ages..which kinda brought up some old "demons" *sigh* and then i dreamt about it last night... I wrote some stuff down though to distract me from the urges but when i read back over what i write i tjust seems so dumb.

Although i did tell her a couple of years ago about my si she either doesnt seem to remember or is just ignoring the fact. She thinks i've stopped..so now i'm all panicky incase she brings it up again

Sorry this post is so long and about nothing..I kinda just needed to say something.