seeking,

You don't sound pathetic, you sound scared. And you have the right to be. Your situation sounds volitile. I'm very glad you're going to counseling, I wish your husband were going with you, he needs to be there too. You need to express your feelings and so does he.Don't feel at all bad about thinking about packing your bags, a situation like this can turn ugly very quickly, and you may need to leave. You need to be prepared for that. Remember that your safety comes first. I know you love you husband, and I hope and pray that this all works out for you. We are all here for you anytime you need to talk. Please stay in touch, OK?

((((((((((seeking))))))))))

Greg