gostryter,

It is a prediciment. I'm not sure if you get any type of long term sick leave at your job, but you might want to consider going to a psychiatrist and being written out for a little while longer.

I understand your fears - I am also overweight and always thought that was a reason I couldn't get a job and it is true there are some people that are prejudiced against that - but not all people.

I'm sort of surprised that you primary care physician has put you on two different antidepressants but hasn't required you to go into counseling - rather encouraging you. Did he give you a referrel?

By the way - you are not a failure. I know everyone things that at one time or another and I did as well once. But, if you had a heart attack and were in the hospital, or broke your leg, or got cancer, would you call yourself a failure?

Give yourself a break and if you really feel you can't go back to work call your primary again and get into therapy.

Tranquility