I ask myself that question 20 times a day. I don't know.

Parts of me are a mother, a wife, a Leader/Boss, has a passion for horses

Then other parts of me are frightened, terrified and scared.

Why can't I just be one person.... why do I have to have parts... when will it get better? How many years of therapy does it take to be one person with one trend of thought.

I don't know who I am half the time.... I just let what ever part of me is responsible for the moment and let them do what they need to do... I don't remember but that's ok, because I function and life goes on.

Who am I??? What have I become???? Why do I feel like I am evil??? Why do I not remember so much???? why can't I just be done with this... I am tired of therapy, I am tired of realizing my wonderful childhood, was a figment of my imagination.... when is enough, enough..

Who am I???? I don't know.

I am lost, I am confused, I am frightened, I want to deny that I have DID, I am terrified of what I am uncovering.

I just want this over, I just want to be one person, with one thought pattern, I just want to be normal!