This was something I definitely had to learn. I have one friend who is the nicest person on earth and I knew he would never hurt me back so if he made me angry I got really, really angry and was cruel to him. I finally decided that I didn't want to be like that anymore and so I told him to make me start over if I was mean and I worked with my therapist on handling frustration/broken expectations better. It's been at least 8 years now since I exploded at my safe person. I also used to get extremely angry at my sister, I think because I was jealous that her life did not include bipolar. But eventually she was the first family member to actually learn about the disorder and ask intelligent questions and that helped me understand. It turns out that she married someone with pretty heavy depression/anxiety disorder (maybe even a hint of bipolar) so this stuff is in her life anyway. And our family has such a high incidence of it that her kids are at risk as well. Suddenly there was no more rage at her. Now I think I turn it inwards as much as anything else but I've definitely learned to cope with it. I still go overboard like showing I'm really annoyed about something stupid to a clerk in the shoe department one day recently and he was a nice guy who tried hard to help me. Now it's not rage, it's a bad attitude for lack of a better description. Better than yelling, still not appropriate.

I don't think less of you, i think you are human and have bipolar.......