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Originally Posted by Willowtrees
I know that term is controversial, but I really dont need a classroom talk. I need help. She came back last night, the person with the birth name. We all thought she was dead and that whatever was left was just a representation. She most definitely does not feel that way. She feels like she is 100% birthname. And apparently she feels like the rest of us are dreams.
She says she dreams things and then wakes up and theyve actually happened (like moving), and said stuff like "I dreamed I was all of these other people, and the dream people have all the answers, and I have nothing". She has some memories/information of whats gone on, but experiences her timeline as being at the bookstore, 'dreaming', and then being somewhere else a year later with no control over it.
I dont know what to say to her, how to talk to her, or how to help her. I dont even understand who she is. I thought we all were her essentially, just divided, and she was gone. But shes here you guys. Shes here, shes scared, and I need advice.
Joshua
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Hey Sweety,
We have an other that denies that were multiple and does a forceful take over when triggered. A lot of the time he forces and controls up front to prove his point. We call him the "Denial Alter" because that's what he mainly does. He thinks he's it and that we're not real and that he is imagining all this. He's a bloated bag of self-esteem if you ask me. He's intense and dead set in his thinking, but usually loses control when his energy fizzles or he gets distracted. He's usually not out long, just enough to annoy.
We have no host, or core as far as I can tell. There is nobody here that goes by the bodies/system name of Dakota that I'm aware of. We respond to the name, but it's so like hollow sounding, especially since our abuser has the same name.
There is so many of us that we've begun to name ourselves after the job we do.
We all have a job to do, and I'm Susie. I'm the nurturing emphatic one that takes care of home life. I've been here forever. I am the "nurturer" that cares and feels because the workers are like mindless drones. They are excellent in what they do, but are not good at raising a family.
We've started mapping and classifying, so I feel like part of a biology experiment.
I don't know how your system is because everyone is different. Since you are working with a T, I'd just give it time.
I journal, and it's like a daily diary but it skips days, if weeks because I'm not always there to do it, but when I am, I forget because I haven't done it in a while! Lol
We started an alter notebook, and it's been nothing but a *****fest, lol. Everyone complaining about amount of time out and how they would do things differently.
We can hear others when we talk directly, but the crowd is way off in the distance, thank God.
Hang in there hun, and give it some time. Luv
