Hi anxikath. Sorry you are sleepless during part of the night. The reason people take meds in many cases is to help them sleep through the night. If you are going to stay off meds, then you are faced with finding a therapist, using herbal remedies or lifestyle changes.

I have to watch what I eat because foods I eat can stabilize my moods or exaggerate them. A high protein low carb diet with snacks or meals every 3-4 hours will over time reduce my swings. I also avoid alcohol and recreational drugs because those can really increase depression.

Other lifestyle changes that help me are doing yoga, counting the breaths silently, exercises, mindfulness, calm music, and being active on Psych Central.

Glad you are joining us here. There are lots of compassionate people here that can make the load lighter by sharing and caring. Feel free to participate actively at Psych Central.
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