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Originally Posted by Baizyl
This isn't meant to be a criticism, but a logical observation.
The fact that you have come here to tell us about this issue - a site meant for emotional support - means you still have hope for yourself. You haven't accepted things as they are, not completely. That's a great thing.
But I have PTSD as well, and I have a negative "self." I'm sort of split into two separate figurative people. That damaged part of me still has a strong influence. When I get into that, I suddenly obsess on everything negative thing in my life. The world suddenly seems like it's against me and that everything that can go wrong will, 100 percent.
Human brains also have more neurons dedicated to processing negative experiences and stimuli. It's easy to get lost in painful memories; I know. My life was difficult as well. It's easier to lost for people with emotional issues, like you and I.
I feel a little silly admitting this, but I have some of my childhood toys and PC games that connect to better parts of my life. Some of these things are rare and impossible to find today, but I'll never sell them. Without them, I get lost in my own awful childhood.
Statistically speaking, it's impossible for everyone to dislike you. Nothing is 100 percent with the human population as a whole. Keep in mind that you have good things, as you yourself stated. Empathy, caring, and being understanding. Those qualities are falling by the wayside. Don't think it's caused you to be on the receiving end of mistreatment. Those are individuals you don't want to associate yourself with. And as always, each individual is responsible for his or her reactions.
You have a lot to offer. I can tell be the way you write and what you say. You still want things to change. Don't devalue yourself. It takes a lot of strength to do what you're doing.
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Thank you very much for your kind words. Yes, it is very rare to find people who have empathy left. I try to be as generous as I possibly can, regarding everyday social relationships, as that's all I really have left to give. I find my journey to getting to love the person that I am very difficult, but I have endured my complications for so long, so I minus well keep pushing to see if there is any merit to it.
And there is. The fact that I can find people that I can connect to is reassuring and comforting, as most people don't really understand what it’s like living with mental illness.
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Originally Posted by BLUEDOVE
For God's sake keep quiet about illness to people you don't know
for length of time.And please look back on your behavior; is it
ingratiating? Are you looking for pity? Do you feel 'less than'?
Do you remain mute when insulted or put down in any way?
Do you try to please too much? Do you NOT think you should
come first at times? Do you have any self-respect? Do you have
any self-esteem? Can you see YOU are responsible for YOUR
life? If you would like to have some of these attributes message
me for some book titles,the like of which,changed my life!
Deepest Respect,
BLUEDOVE
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I don’t like to tell people about my current preposition unless they tell me about their own problems. Usually I will talk about other things besides that, but if it does go to that point, I will tell them. It’s only fair.
My self-esteem is very low; I honestly can say that I hate the way that I look. Nothing that I can do will ever change that. I would also like to believe that I do have control over my own life, but I don’t really. Whether or not I would want to advance myself with any particular skill, it needs to be validated by someone else in order for me to succeed or fail. I can only make minor changes to my life, but it is irreverent when you can compare it to how society treats you.