Hi Chocopiano27

I think you have so much of this situation in your favor. It sounds like you are having an extreme amount of anxiety and you are very self conscious about every act that you do or word that you speak. Have you tried any relaxation techniques or meditation before you go to meet up with them? It is about getting your mind just in the moment and not thinking about all of the things that could go wrong. You say that they like you and you say that you are outgoing. Being silly and outgoing attracts a lot of people your age and you have what they are most probably wishing that they had. It sounds like you are popular and you must have a type of magnetic personality or they would not want to be around you. I don't think that they hate you at all. I am not so sure that they actually see what you are feeling. Most girls that age are worried about how they come across. I think all of you are in the exact same boat. Just relax and try to see if you can just be and not think that you have to be appropriate all the time. None of us are perfect. Take care.