ok i'm going to spam the couch one last time this evening and share that evidently I either dreamed that I put the paper in the filing cabinet, or thought about doing it so hard that I thought I actually did it. Anyway I found it. Apparently hubby threw it away (!) on accident, I decided to look in the garbage just in case, it wasn't in the garbage in the house, but I went out to the garbage can in the garage (hi baby birdies!) and opened up the one bag in the can, and there it was. Practically right on top. Whew! I am so glad I found it. Perhaps it was supposed to happen like this. I got another chance to use the skills t taught me to calm myself the heck down. And, figured out the next thing I am going to work on in myself - organi-freakin-zation!!!!! Thanks for bearing with me through my little panic attack.