I am falling apart this second. I already wrote this in therapy forum but I am trying to keep typing to keep the pain at bay. It is so bad that I usually take 2 Xanax when stress is bad and it calms or puts me to sleep. Over the last 2 hours I have taken 3 and it isn't doing anything. I tried to trust my t based on what we have been talking about and sent him a text about some crazy stuff happening today. he responded very generically and not about what I was stressing over and then I responded that I was completely falling apart, in a panick (cptsd) and then dared say words I have not said in over 20 years.. I finished the text saying I was scared. He HAS to know how hard that was for me. That was over 2 hours ago and no reply. I am not a huge texter.. I have had probably 6 panic texts and 10 -15 apologies for thing I felt I messed up in session and he used to answer immediately and encouragingly... I have noticed a major decrease in how fast he answers, what he says and today... even after I decided to trust him and risk saying point blank that I was scared (which I never trust people or ask for help) he just left me hanging.