Hi everyone. I'd like to apologize in advance if this is not in the right category.

Some bit of history: Throughout my childhood I've sufffered from major depression, anxiety disorder, and some bit of dissociative tendencies and trauma. But through intense therapy I have managed to overcome some of these things. Although I do not go to therapy anymore.

This isn't the first time it has happened. Today I went somewhere that I was excited about for a week. When I arrived, the initial feeling was joy but then after a few minutes of being there I felt a sudden emptiness, a numbness, but at the same time a feeling of suffocation. I felt far away from myself and things around me. It feels like I've checked out even though I do not want to be.