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Originally Posted by Squirrel1983
Evening couch. Well, no cleaning today (what's new). I slept in till 30 minutes before I had to leave for work (and I didn't have to leave until 2:30pm). I went to work and was fine. I was hungry after work, so I went to my favorite restaurant for a bite to eat. Then came home and am exhausted and feel like sleeping again. What is wrong with me?!? Why am I sleeping so much?!? Why can't I finish a task that needs completed?!? Maybe it has to do with having not taken the meds I still take pills for in about 3 or 3.5 weeks. Maybe it is catching up with me. I just can't remember to take them until it is too late, so I just choose not to. Maybe that is what pdoc meant last visit when he said I could not be trusted to take pills and needed to stay on the injection for the one medication. This is not the first time this has happened.
I want to be normal. Why do I self-sabatoge and not take my medication and end up feeling miserable? Guess it's something else to tackle in therapy. Dang, the list is getting long.
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I hope you'll have some compassion for yourself. You are holding down a job, doing therapy, and no doubt other things.
Everyone I know self-sabotages to some extent, if we look at it that way... too much junk food or too much drinking. Too much relationship drama or too much procrastinating. Or too little sleep, or too little organization, or... whatever it may be. We're just human after all, sometimes I think it's hard to always be up for the chore-list that is life as grown ups.
Hope you do take good care of yourself med-wise, but I just wanted you to know you had a ton of company in not cleaning everything up on schedule