I'm really pleased that you summoned up the courage to share your feeling.

I'll tell you some awful-feeling but true advice someone gave me when I felt similarly about my therapist not being there for me at a critical moment-

The reply I got was that it might just be that I needed to accept that my therapist wouldn't always have the right thing for me.

The... journey is to tell your truth. That was brave. That was progress! And even in therapy, sometimes when we do the 'right' thing- say the difficult stuff, make ourselves vulnerable, our therapists won't return the favor by doing what we most want/need.

But we don't break.

We can continue building that strong relationship, and learning that these hiccups are part of it.

I'm sorry you are having a tough night. I don't know exactly what it's like for you, but I have PTSD, and sometimes my anxiety, when people are in my space that I don't want there, and I can't get to my own coping methods, feels insanely uncomfortable so I sympathize at least.

Do you have any non-med coping techniques that could help a little bit?

Sometimes wrapping up in a shawl and hunkering down helps, other times music, or rereading other comforting things from my therapist, or doing something different like getting out can help a bit.