Thank you Leah... I hear your words but I just don't know.

He had to read that text and he KNOWS that emotions and trust are one of my biggest battles and he obviously made a conscious decision NOT to reply. He has only not replied to something a couple of times. He almost ALWAYS does, so for some reason with this disclosure I haven't tried to make in so long, he didn't care or had some other reason to leave me alone. I just don't understand. I know it is his weekend and I respect that, but all he had to do was say 'hang in there' or something easy like that. Anything other then ignore me. I just want my pills to nock me out so bad and I want t sleep for days or weeks.

Thanks for responding Leah, I needed that