I have made the agreement with him that I will talk about anything unless it has to do with him. I can't hurt people or cause them pain and he is a sweet caring man and if I brought it up he would know how much it hurt me and he would feel bad. I can't and won't do that. I have been this way for 30 years, and so it isn't going to change that fast.

I just have to figure out how to deal with whatever therapeutic approach he goes with because I am right back to feeling I am am worthless with him now as I am with everyone else. He spent a session on trying to get me to see how I compare my worth to others, and then chose to not even care today and he is such a good guy.

I don't know but my Xanax is finally kicking in enough (took three times as much tonight, THAT has never happened) so I am going to try to sleep and pretend none of this ever happened. Thanks for talking to me you two.

Have a good night