Okay, so, to make a long story short.... My mom has always tried to force medication on me even when my psychiatrist agreed that there would be a day I didn't need it. That day came last year, right before I made the sudden decision to come back to college and all of that stress began flooding in but honestly, I was doing really well. I had a few times I broke down, and I did have bouts of depressive episodes more often than usual but it's important to keep in mind that I had just drastically changed my entire way of life. College, living on my own, working to support myself, etc. I didn't just step out of my comfort zone, I BOUNDED from it.

Now, two and a half months ago I had to abruptly go off of Birth Control because I was getting migraines with aura. I had been on estrogen birth control since I was 13 and I'm now in my twenties. Ever since then, I've been a sobbing mess over the littlest things and my anger has been really bad.

Mom once again told me I need to be on medication, and she told me that today while she was here but also made me feel guilty by saying "I can't handle seeing you struggle on a daily basis like this" but she doesn't seem to understand the situation. I was supposed to be in therapy and that was going to be my treatment but they never let me do it because I don't have my own car. I tried counseling here at school but that didn't work.

I'm about 100% convinced that my mood swings now are because my hormones are all jacked up from the lack of BC. I now have a new one I'll be starting tomorrow that should get everything level again, but I don't know how to get my mom off of my back to know that I'll be okay without my medication. I've done so much better off of it and I KNOW I wouldn't have been able to do well this year had I been on it because it just clouds my mind way too much.

I promised her I'd talk to my psychiatrist about it, to get a professional opinion, but even when he says (like before) I am okay off of it, she still insists I need it because she disagrees with the Doctor I've been seeing since I was about five years old.

Any suggestions? :/ I'm really frustrated. I know she means well but this just adds stress and guilt because I end up second guessing myself.