You're really putting a lot on him!

"He chose to not even care." (Many other interpretations like this in previous posts too.) One thing I do is focus on how I feel instead of mind-reading, it helps me get what I need, something my T helped reinforce/teach me. Like, "I feel abandoned," instead of "you abandoned me" When I told her that stuff, instead of blaming her, then she didn't feel hurt at all, and she gave me what I wanted.

You're filling in the empty space with some really negative cognitive distortions.

I hope you can find some peace with him and some way to work this out when you're feeling better, sounds like an awful night. Good night!