The OCD I can track back to elementary school. I did a 180 when I was 15. I have blocked out a lot. I do remember being depressed, suicidal, and cutting. My parents were told to take me to a pdoc when I was 10 but they denied anything was wrong. Finally at 15 they did. They diagnosed me as depressed and put me on ADs that caused mania, but they were idiots back then and didn't diagnose teenagers with BP. At 16 I was diagnosed with the OCD. Finally I think at about 18-19 I stopped my ADs I had enough. Things calmed down, maybe, or maybe I was blind and didn't see what was going on? A few months before my marriage I remember it went bad and I was diagnosed a year later at the age of 27, I'm now 35. I wished back when I was a teen they were diagnosing BP like they are now. I believe my life would be different, but I feel I'm a stronger person for what I've gone through though.