Hi Chris,

I am so sorry for the horrible things that happened to you, especially by family members entrusted to take care for you and your sister. I also struggle with PTSD and all of the suicidal thoughts this brings.

I also want to say how sorry I am for your husband's stroke -- that must be such a struggle on top of what was already too much!

I don't know what come first, but things like bipolar and depression have genetic origins but trauma certainly exacerbates them if there was already a predisposition.

I think it sounds hopeful that you acknowledge wanting to get your life back on track. Are you seeing a therapist? For me, the best motivator for getting well and staying live is my child. I'm sure with having two children, that can be a powerful motivator for you too. How is your husband doing?

I'm new here, and it's nice to know that there are others who have walked a mile in your shoes. I'm incredibly moved by all of the pain in the posts of the people who have responded to you and yet how much everyone joins in wanting to help.